So… I kinda stopped blogging. At the beginning, I told myself I’d post every week. Obviously that didn’t pan out.
I can’t really make the excuse that my schoolwork has completely overwhelmed me. I’m a second semester senior-what’s schoolwork??? Even though I’ve been bored out of my mind in school, I’m still busy with track practice and meets and just other things and let me just be honest. I’ve been really tired. Like the kind of tired where you can sleep on the weekends all you want and still be tired from the word go on Monday and then all throughout the week. I honestly don’t know why I’ve been tired, I go to bed before 10:30 almost every night. Whatever.
I think one of the main things that’s been preventing me from blogging is that I expect too much from myself. I try to write posts, but it just never comes out like I intend. I haven’t decided what platform I want to target or if I even want to have specific targets. I think that takes the fun out of it. Why shouldn’t I be able to blog about anything I want? My blog is basically a public journal where I can pretend to have an audience that cares what I have to say. A public journal with the intent to provide content for myself to look back on while inspiring others. There. I said it.
I have a really bad habit of expecting to be a pro at everything even if I’m just starting out. It’s kinda like that quote that says something like “Don’t compare your mile one to someone else’s mile 26.” Is that how it goes? Or did I just make that up? I really struggle with comparison when it comes to my hobbies and interests. I expect my blog to look like the famous travel blogger’s sites or the creative mommy bloggers. Meanwhile, mine is drab and I still can’t seem to figure out how to add pages or really do anything to my site 😦 It’s very frustrating for me and makes me insecure.
I know it’s dumb to stress about something that should be fun, but I still place unnecessary pressure on myself. I find comfort in the fact that many people tell me that they enjoy reading my blogs-even if it is my family and my boyfriend (I think they’re a little biased) BUT at least someone enjoys it along with me and that should be enough! So maybe I’ll spice things up and switch my theme, huh, what do we think about that? Maybe add some more pages and really get the blog looking like a real site. MAYBE
So, now that I’ve got this off my chest I am going to push myself to post every Sunday. Even if I think my post sounds like the stupidest thing on Earth. Because in retrospect, should I care? Eh, maybe, but there are better things to worry about than if Sue thinks I ramble too much and my posts are ugly and unorganized. We’re all trying our best, sweetie! Don’t you forget it.
Smell ya l8r
MACK
The Mackadamia Nut 